I am not going to church today.
I have been quite down and teary over the last week.
Last week at Church someone made the comment about how lucky this couple were to have their first baby.
The speaker continued to say that they were a good couple who deserved to have this blessing.
No malice was intended, but statements like that hurt,
And I expect there will be more like that today.
I am a good person, my husband is an even better person!
If being deserving was the qualification for having children,
We'd have a bunch and I'd be hoping for breakfast in bed this morning!
Today I wonder,
Am I a mother?
I tired my best to nuture the lives that grew within me!
I loved them.
I loved what might have been.
I am a mother.
Happy Mothers Day to my mum!
