Phew...

A sigh of relief...I am finally starting to feel normal again.

It has been pretty hard.

I found it very difficult to get past the grief.

I was scared.

But I laugh and feel happiness again.

Lots of Photos...

If our photos are anything to go by

our holiday consisted of

eating and more eating.

Disney...

Yummy Disney...

Universal Studios...

(Naughty me...eating gluten. Delicious gluten!)
I miss you Cinnabon..XOX.

I even dreamt about you the other night.

To be continued...(Computer loading photos so s...l...o...w).

Next time - the drive to Vegas, snickers ice-creams (I miss you too) and more.

But just one more photo....

How handsome is this man!!!

I made out with him a few times on the trip! Ha ha!!!

77% Chance...

Things have been hard.
I was just going to say I won't bore you with the details.
But...the details aren't boring, they are full of hurt.
Sadly, people don't really talk about how they feel about a miscarriage.

This time it is much harder,
I feel the loss,
I feel the sadness,
I feel empty.

And yet I have to go on working, being a wife, a sister, a daughter and an aunty.
Who wants to be around someone trying not to cry all the time?
And yet...I hurt and I need to cry, and cry a little more if needed.
Hmmm....I might take a few days off work.


So...what about this 77%.
Saw the fertility specialist on Wednesday.
Apparently I have a 77% chance of "going to term" next time.
Apparently there is optimism to be found in having a pregnancy.
Can I just have a successful one next time?
Please?

Am still to post holiday pics...
Maybe tomorrow...