Broken hearted...

Not very talkative today.

Follow-up scan yesterday showed the embryo had died.

Will tell more later.

I am...

Exhausted,

Worried,

Scared,

And I want to cry!

I am trying to be:

Happy,

Hopeful,

And faithful.

When is this a "sure thing"?

When the baby is my arms.

This is hard.

Be patient and tolerant...

Ta da!!!

That little blob inside the dark blog is the embryo!

Anticipation....

First ultrasound on Monday!!!

So excited!!!

Shaylie!

I love this little girl.

She is very brave,

funny,

kind,

and ever so cute.

Penny for them?

I would be rich if I had a penny for everytime I have thought

something baby related over the last week!

What was that?

Was that a good twinge?

Was that a bad twinge?

I haven't felt a twinge in awhile - what does that mean!

I feel sick- oh good!

I am not feeling sick at the moment - what does that mean!

Boobies aren't sore,

Infact I think they have shrunk!

I know, I know!

Stop worrying!

Fertility treatment means an increased awareness of your body.

You notice every twinge and twiggle!

It also means that things haven't come easy.

Something gained is treasured,

And the fear of loosing that treasure is real.