3 eggs collected
3 eggs fertilised
Can't get better fertilisation rates than that!!!!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
To blog or not to blog....
That has been my question.
I decided after my miscarrige that I wasn't going to talk about my next IVF cycle or pregnancy. I kept crying when people would ask me how I was doing and I felt embarrassed. And yet a felt so comforted know and feel love from family and friends.
I have also missed the theraputic element of writing my thoughts down. Yes, I know I generally don't get to deep in my thoughts and feelings on my blog, but writing helps me find some fun in the experiences I am having. Just a funny side-effect...
So, to catch up and get a little clarity of thought, I'll tell you of the latest happenings.
I told you of our last fertility specialist appointment - the 77% conversation. At that appointment we also discussed the plan for the "next cycle". Well, that cycle is well underway. I say well, but really I feel totally crappy about it all. I have had the worst headaches and my ovaries have taken a holiday. They have only produced 4 follicles! You may remember that this is a low response and led to a cancelled cycle. Not a consideration this time - I am going ahead.
Egg collection is Thursday.
To be truthful - I don't hold out much hope for this cycle. Call that what you will -pessimism, realism or self-preservation. I was hoping to a least get some to freeze. Sometimes quality is better than quantity. Oh, did I just see a glimmer or hope?
This all just seems to much at the moment.
I am hurt.
I am scared.
I am disappointed.
I am to scared to be excited, happy or hopeful.
I decided after my miscarrige that I wasn't going to talk about my next IVF cycle or pregnancy. I kept crying when people would ask me how I was doing and I felt embarrassed. And yet a felt so comforted know and feel love from family and friends.
I have also missed the theraputic element of writing my thoughts down. Yes, I know I generally don't get to deep in my thoughts and feelings on my blog, but writing helps me find some fun in the experiences I am having. Just a funny side-effect...
So, to catch up and get a little clarity of thought, I'll tell you of the latest happenings.
I told you of our last fertility specialist appointment - the 77% conversation. At that appointment we also discussed the plan for the "next cycle". Well, that cycle is well underway. I say well, but really I feel totally crappy about it all. I have had the worst headaches and my ovaries have taken a holiday. They have only produced 4 follicles! You may remember that this is a low response and led to a cancelled cycle. Not a consideration this time - I am going ahead.
Egg collection is Thursday.
To be truthful - I don't hold out much hope for this cycle. Call that what you will -pessimism, realism or self-preservation. I was hoping to a least get some to freeze. Sometimes quality is better than quantity. Oh, did I just see a glimmer or hope?
This all just seems to much at the moment.
I am hurt.
I am scared.
I am disappointed.
I am to scared to be excited, happy or hopeful.
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