Up to date!!!!

So now my blog is up to date,

Almost.

Just a little more of the journey to share.

It has been difficult.

And it is with trepidation,

That I take this next step.

Yesterday I pulled and old friend out of the fridge.

And gave myself a massive bruise.

I took a photo.

It really is a pretty colour!

Maybe I can make a smiley face this time.

With purple lipstick!

I have changed clinics.

I am taking more drugs this time,

In the hopes of getting more follicles, that means more eggs,

And therefore more embryos.

Guess What I Got Out of the Fridge this Morning?

Did you guess right?

Yep, we started another cycle! We aren't really broasdcasting this cycle, not keeping it a secret really, just not telling everyone like I did the first time. It is safe to post here though as I think only two of my sisters check my blog...Hi Allison and Kathryn!!!

It was hard last time to explain to people about our cycle being cancelled. In doing research prior to beginning treatment I never understood why people on forums would discuss whether to tell people about their treatment or not. I thought they chose not to tell people out of shame. I was not and am not ashamed of undergoing IVF. In fact, I am very grateful that we have the technology and means to be able to help us have children. I was so excited by the possibilities that I told a lot of people.

I now understand that it is much more of am emotive process than I had ever contemplated and being confronted with those emotions through questions about the process is very taxing. Sorry to all those I judged. It was not out of malice just lack of understanding. I now understand a bit more.